Before Gardasil my daughter was an outgoing, super funny, confident, soccer athlete, practicing 3-4 hrs a day. She planned to play HS soccer and move on to college soccer. Autumn was a free spirit and so full of life. Her love for animals and passion to save the mistreated drove her to want to open her own animal shelter. She had dreams, goals and a plan. That is until she had the Gardasil vaccine.
In January of 2010 she began the series of Gardasil shots. Her second shot was on 3/31 and by 5/10 we had her back to the doctors due to shortness of breath, along with horrible rib and back pain. From then on, our nightmare just kept getting worse.
Autumn’s life after Gardasil
She experienced excruciating rib/back pain episodes and was unable to stand up straight or breathe deeply. Pain episodes lasting as long as 4 weeks, requiring many ER visits. During one of these visits a mass measuring 6x12x9 was found in her abdominal muscle under her rib. The doctors thought it was possibly bone cancer. They kept her overnight to do a bone biopsy but by morning the mass was gone. It literally disappeared overnight! Her doctors could give no explanation and conducted no further studies.
So, her life continued with constant leg/knee pain, intense muscle contractions, painful joints, chronic congestion, sore throats, ear pain, reoccurring hearing loss, bladder infections, heat sensitivity, feeling faint in showers/baths, shortness of breath walking one flight of steps/talking too long, unbearable migraines leaving her screaming in pain, light/sound sensitivity, chest pains, racing heart,
lymphadenopathy, tiny cuts bleeding over 20 min, bruising, petechial rashes, cold purple feet, heavy menstrual cycles, paralyzing pelvic pain with lumps that come and go, cycles lasting 3 weeks or longer. Chronic fatigue, sleeping sometimes 20 hrs a day, night sweats, strange skin sensations, lips going numb, reoccurring rashes covering her body including the mucosa of her mouth/nose making breathing difficulties requiring ER visits. Gastroparesis- stomach paralysis causing severe bloating appearing as if she was 6 months pregnant, debilitating pain, no appetite, severe weight loss, weight gain from body going into starvation mode, constant nausea, vomiting blood/bile leaving her begging for mercy and pleading for death.
Autumn will live with stomach paralysis for the rest of her life. Can you imagine being unable to absorb nutrition and suffering malnourishment as a result?
Autumn fought hard to keep the life she had prior to Gardasil, but eventually was forced to quit soccer and withdraw from school.
She has been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Autumn suffers from extreme memory loss, anger, insomnia, and severely diminished cognitive processes. She has self-harmed, cutting and branding her wrist/hips to cope with the suffering she endures daily.
Did the benefits of Gardasil outweigh the risk for Autumn? Absolutely not!
Where is the medical community now? They casually say our daughter is a complicated case and offer no answers, wish us luck then send us on our way.
Like so many other families we have been left to try and cope the best we can. No recognition is ever given to the possibility that the Gardasil vaccine may be the cause of Autumn’s long list of terrible side effects.
This young lady has to suffer and wonder why this has happened to her and why no one in the medical community appears to care.
We, as her family, are left to try and pick up the pieces and keep her as safe as we can. This is no easy task but she is our daughter and we love her so much.
In our hearts, we know if we could go back in time our daughter would never have had these three shots of Gardasil. Life at this moment in time would be perfect for her and for us. If only ……!!
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Alicia and Autumn, I am at a loss for words after reading your story.
Autumn, I am stunned at the level of pain and number of on-going, and significant symptoms you have had to endure.
When I step back and ponder on the severity of the day to day difficulties, a couple of thoughts immediately come to mind.
The first thought is one I have relied on many times.
Pray to the Lord, and ask Him, to help carry your burdens, and you can even be specific, such as pain or discomfort in a particular area.
The second thought would be to contact the following doctor specifically. I don’t believe I have ever said that in a post before, but he came to mind. Dr. Mark Flannery
I know he has helped dozens of youth from all across the county as well as world-wide with vaccine injuries and specifically HPV vaccine injuries. He has expertise in this area.
The next impression is to be at peace if you can, that this will be a journey. Take it a day at a time.
You wouldn’t have received such a difficult trial if you were not a strong individual. That doesn’t mean that you have to live with such demands for the rest of your life.
If you allow it, the Lord will help ease these burdens one day at a time. Just trust in him and set him at the helm and the best possible outcome will occur.
Autumn, you are not alone and know that you have friends the world over who are praying for you and believe in you.
Here is a musical selection to help take your mind off things for awhile.
I am 16 years old. For me, everything started a few days after I received the HPV vaccine, Gardasil. I woke up one day choking and unable to breathe. I felt like I was going to pass out so my parents took me to a hospital. I was stabilized, kept overnight and sent home, just like that. No tests, no medications, no explanations as to what could have caused the problem. This was only the beginning.
First it was just trouble with breathing, nausea, and feeling faint. Every doctor I saw dismissed me with, “Well, you’re breathing now.”
Then it progressed to choking, hyperventilating, panic attacks and soon enough I was getting panic attacks every day, sometimes as many as four times a day.
Then the depression came. This is going to be hard to talk about, as it still triggers a lot of anxiety and depression in me, but I will try my best to tell as much as I can.
Going to psychologists and psychiatrists didn’t help at all. All they ever told me was to “take a relaxing bath,” “light some nice smelling candles” and “go out with friends”. I tried all those things. I tried every single thing they told me to try and yet none of it worked. Still, they didn’t seem to care about that and kept telling me to try the same things again and again.
Many times I’ve been told to “think about all the people that have it worse than me” and many times people laughed after I expressed my thoughts or feelings about a certain topic.
The psychologists were late to every appointment and talked about everything with a passive attitude as if I was exaggerating and making everything up.
One of the doctors at a hospital told my parents the reason all this was happening to me was because I’m “troubled.” She said it even though I was in the room.
Another doctor stood by my hospital bed as I screamed and cried in pain because of back spasms and watched me for about ten minutes before simply walking away. I didn’t receive any help that time, no painkillers, nothing. I just stayed in my bed until the spasms passed.
A few months later Dad and I went to the same doctor for a check-up. As he flipped casually through my medical file he said “I don’t have any record of pain written down here from that time” and shrugged his shoulders.
Another doctor, a substitute for one of my psychologists, was somehow convinced that my parents were abusing me regardless of the fact that I told him that wasn’t the case every time we met for an appointment.
Every doctor we went to dismissed us and tried to get rid of us.
Overall, I just felt useless, hopeless, and broken. I felt guilty – like all that was happening was my fault somehow. When I didn’t feel like crying my eyes out, I felt completely nothing and sat still, staring off into space.
The amount of times I imagined myself dying is terrifying. I was scared of myself. I was scared that I would lose control and start screaming and breaking everything around me from all the pain, terror and anger. Yes, I was angry – I was really angry! Angry that my feelings were so easily dismissed, as if they were something you can pick up, explore for a little while and toy with a little, before being thrown in the trash.
When it comes to physical symptoms…there were a lot. There still are, they still come back every so often.
There were hallucinations of a girl named Trillion who hit me. There were episodes where my body would switch itself off and I’d be left unable to move, speak, swallow, blink and yet still able to feel and hear everything around me. That could last from ten minutes to eight hours. My legs would become paralyzed, for periods lasting from thirty minutes to four days.
I couldn’t go out at all, unless I wanted to risk an anxiety attack so bad I would have to return home within half an hour of being out of the house. Being around people made me anxious, it still does.
Once I felt so bad, so depressed, and so angry that I cut into my arm with a needle. I regretted doing that instantly. I still get an urge to do it, though it’s faint.
I genuinely had to force myself to want to live. I wanted to disappear. I wanted all of the symptoms to stop.
Now without a doubt, I can say that I am a lot better. I have been taking homeopathy remedies for a few months. They have helped more than all of the anti-depressants I was prescribed for two years.
Perhaps soon I can leave Gardasil and the past behind me. Maybe I can have a normal life after all.
Lidia, thank you for writing your story. You are a brave girl.
It is hard to hear that you are sixteen and enduring this trial at this time of your life.
You have been let down by many in the medical field, I am sorry for this. This is not the way anyone should be treated, let alone at your age. I am amazed at how strong you are.
The good news is that you can help guide others through sharing this story.
There are also health practitioners that have listened to the quiet guidance within and have found ways to heal, at different levels, those who have been injured. If you contact any of the physicians in the links below, I think you will find them to be far more understanding and helpful than your previous experiences. I can’t say enough about these practitioners.
Sane Vax has aMedical listingand this is a link to my Featured doctors, who have experstise in working with individuals who have encountered vaccine injuries. Distance is not an issue with many of them. Just feel free to send them an email.
I would love to hear how things go. I am a big fan of homeopathy and am happy to hear you have found some remedies that are working out well for you.
Remember to keep your Creator at the helm and you will have all the guidance you will ever need.
Just know that many of us are praying and cheering you on from all around the world.
Here’s a little artistic clip that I hope takes your mind off things for awhile.
By Ann Fitzpatrick from Carlow, Republic of Ireland
My daughter turned 15 in February of 2015. Once she had lots of friends and participated in many activities both in school and at home. She did Irish dancing from 4 years of age, played football for her parish and county, and was awarded 2nd place in the world handwriting competition. She was great in school. In short, she was healthy, active and happy.
All of that changed shortly after she got her first injection of the HPV vaccine, Gardasil in October 2012.
By November she started having seizures. Since then she has had chest pains, vision problems, non-epileptic seizures, low blood pressure, inflammation of the stomach and small bowel, reflux, is very tired and has no energy. She has a pulse rate that can go up to 216 just walking 10 feet, or 178 sitting down. She has been told so many things by doctors in the last 2 1/2 years that she does not even want to go near them anymore
In April 2013, due to the number of seizures she was having at school, she was told by the school administration that she wouldn’t be allowed to attend anymore ‘for health and safety reasons’. They said that she should be home-schooled instead. So my daughter went to the papers and told her story. She let people know that she wanted to go to school and that they could not stop her. She is now in Junior Cert year but has only got 5 hours a week of home schooling.
I have reported the HPV vaccine connection in every hospital Carol has been in over the last two-and-a-half years. I reported the connection to the HSE and Medical Council.
I was told by an American neurologist that was over Carol that if Gardasil did not cause her new seizures, it contributed to them.
All I have heard from other doctors is that she is a complicated case. Even at the start of her seizures, one Doctor in Kilkenny said he would not like to take her on. Then we had other doctors trying to make out it was all in her head who then sent her to people who told her they could not help her.
In my opinion it’s them that need help. They need to open their eyes and see what the health system has done to a child. Two and a half years and still they have no answers.
No words can express how I feel about all of this. I just want my daughter’s life back the way it was before she got this injection. I want the support of our health system. I want them to do whatever tests and treatments necessary to help her recover her normal life.
The R.E.G.R.E.T. Support Group was launched recently in Ireland by parents of chronically ill teenage girls. These parents blame an injection the girls received at school as the cause of their daughters’ illness. The drug in question is called Gardasil and is being marketed as an anti-cancer vaccine. R.E.G.R.E.T. is an acronym for “Reactions and Effects of Gardasil Resulting in Extreme Trauma”.
Members of ten families from all over the country came together to share experiences and express their exasperation at the inability of health authorities to recognise the pattern of serious adverse reactions being suffered by children who, up until receiving the Gardasil injection, enjoyed an active healthy lifestyle. One of the main complaints raised at the meeting was that the information provided by the HSE (as part of the ‘informed consent’ process) is extremely misleading, particularly with regard to how safe the vaccine is.
Although its cancer-preventing properties have never been proven, the HSE insists that the benefits of Gardasil outweigh the risks and even claim that it has been ‘fully tested’. This is despite the limited safety testing that took place as a result of this “life-saving vaccine” being fast-tracked through the regulatory approval process. HSE did not inform parents that Gardasil contains genetically engineered non-human recombinant DNA, the effects of which are unknown and unpredictable when injected into a human host.
The types of long term debilitating health conditions reported by Irish parents have in many cases meant that the girls are unable to continue their education in school. Because of the nature of the chronic illnesses, Irish doctors and consultants are unable to offer any effective treatment. With 1 or 2 rare exceptions, medical professionals dismiss these serious reactions as unrelated to Gardasil and merely coincidental. When tests come back negative, parents are often told that their girls simply have psychological/psychosomatic problems.
The group also launched the website www.Regret.ie, where parents can read first-hand accounts from Irish victims and their families. The site is a focal point for raising awareness among other parents whose daughters have yet to receive the injection, with the schools vaccination program set to resume in September.
According to Catherine Weitbrecht, spokesperson for R.E.G.R.E.T.,
Since the the group was formed, 4 new parents with daughters injured by Gardasil have come forward via the website to join our group. 2 of these stories are particularly horrendous. One is so depressed she has to be watched 24/7; the other has a bleeding disorder so bad that she could literally bleed to death if she has a small accident. The third girl had POTS and the fourth has seizures.
It seems Gardasil and other HPV vaccines are causing the greatest epidemic of ’conversion disorder’ the world has ever seen.
*According to the FDA a serious adverse event must fit one of the following criteria: death, life-threatening, hospitalization, disability or permanent damage, congenital abnormality/birth defect, or the requirement to intervene to prevent permanent impairment.
My daughter, Abbey, was a healthy happy 13 year old when she started secondary school. On the 22nd September 2014 she received her Gardasil vaccine along with the Tdap vaccine in school. She had an adverse reaction straight away. For over an hour, she was left lying on a mat on the floor while the rest of the girls were being vaccinated.
During this time she had seizure-like jerking, rolling eyes, blurred vision, headache, nausea etc. Eventually after an hour and twenty minutes we were called to the school to pick her up. No ambulance was called. The school administrators were not informed this episode had happened until the next day.
When I arrived at the school and asked why an ambulance wasn’t called,I was told I was OVERREACTING and this would wear off.
The next day, her mother and I thought Abbey was suffering withdrawals. Little did we know our nightmare was only getting started.
Two days after the vaccine Abbey returned to school but took another seizure and was taken by ambulance to Drogheda hospital A&E and admitted for six days.
After loads of blood tests, an MRI, and a lot of scratching of heads she was sent home with no diagnosis and no medication. We were told we would learn to adjust our lives and live with the situation.
Six months later, we are still waiting to see a neurologist.
At the moment, Abbey is not attending school because of her illness. Every day is a struggle thanks to Gardasil. Most days she simply wishes all this would be fixed and she can get back to school.
There has been no help offered from either the school or the health service!!
The vision problems, chest pains and stroke like symptoms continue!! The doctors keep suggesting BEHAVIOURAL problems and panic attacks but we have known our child for 13 years. She has never had any type of behavioural problems as the doctors are trying to suggest.
We have shortened this story a good bit so as not to bore the readers but our nightmare is now over 6 months long…….we can only speculate as to how much longer we must endure.
I am speechless and so sorry you have endured this. What kind of people would treat anyone like this, let alone a child? It’s time for our school, government and health officials to wake-up. No more.
Our youth are the best asset this world has to offer.
The last thing Abbey needs is to have someone tell her this is all in her head. Treat the source, right.
You all are really strong and please know there are many, many wonderful people cheering you on across the world.
Fortunately, you know of Sanevax.org. They have helped many youth and their families to locate doctors with expertise in this area. I also have practitioners within my Featured Doctors section as well. I hope you find a healing source soon and know that you are never alone in this.
Below is a clip that I hope lifts your spirits. Pray always.
God bless, and remember even with all the chaos, and this can be especially hard to do, remember this phrase:
My daughter Laura has just turned 17 and is without doubt another girl whose life is ruined as a result of the HPV vaccine Gardasil.
When Laura first brought home the consent form from school in 2010 I read it thoroughly. I also went on the World Health Organisation (WHO) website to educate myself about this vaccine as it was new here in Ireland and I didn’t know much about it.
After reading their information and that supplied by our Health Services, I felt not only reassured that this was a safe vaccine but also that this was something very important for ‘my little girl’ and her future health. I stupidly thought that all details good and bad had to be printed so parents and girls could make properly informed choices.
Let’s not forget this vaccine is being promoted by our schools, Department of Education, the Health Service Executive Ireland (HSE) and WHO so one would think it must be good for all our children. Surely these reputable organizations wouldn’t take any chances with the lives and health of our next generation. I was satisfied I had done my research and taken all necessary precautions.
On the day of Laura’s first vaccination and indeed the following two injections, I was called to the school as Laura was feeling weak. This was to be expected as Laura was always squeamish about needles. In fact I had to do a lot of talking with her about the necessity of this vaccination to convince her to go through with having ‘a needle’. On the day there was also a lot of scare mongering amongst the students so I probably took it for granted that this had raised their anxieties and caused several of the girls to feel weak and unwell.
The vaccinating nurse told me to take her home, let her rest and she would be fine.
In the months that followed, Laura started phoning from school complaining of feeling unwell, faint and dizzy. We thought she was starting to experience menstrual problems for the first time although her periods were well established and not problematic before. The family doctor prescribed medication.
Laura was becoming tired all the time, her short term memory and concentration were deteriorating. She also started to experience food intolerances for the first time, in particular, yeast, gluten and dairy. Laura suffered visual disturbances and noise sensitivity. Burning muscles and joint pain were her constant companion. She was unable to continue with sports.
Before all this happened Laura played basketball for Drogheda Ladies and the school team. She loved to Kayak at the weekends and during school holidays, Laura was super-fit, active and happy. All extra-curricular and social activity had by now become impossible for her.
Even friends stopped calling as she didn’t have the strength to go out with them. Slowly life as Laura knew it was changing.
To put things in perspective, my mother in her 80’s was going out to day-care and Laura was lying in bed or on the couch. In fact on many an occasion we had to use my mother’s wheelchair for Laura when she hadn’t the energy to walk. It was plain for anyone to see something was very seriously wrong.
We started to visit our GP more and more although whilst growing up Laura only visited our doctor on a few occasions. No one seemed to have any idea what was going on, tests and more tests, nearly every box ticked on the blood forms. Every kind of sample you could imagine was requested, yet none of the results showed up anything. They all came back clear, indicating Laura was in good health.
Therefore no help, advice, medications or supplements were recommended. On every occasion we returned home deflated and our hopes dashed again and again.
I could no longer sleep at night with stress and worry. Instead, I found myself up in the middle of the night logging on to google looking for answers. Night after night I lay in bed racking my brains trying to figure out what happened. When exactly had things all started to go wrong and why?
Then in early 2012 for some reason the HPV vaccine came back to my mind. Could it possibly be the cause of all Laura’s health problems, the vaccine that I was so reassured about? Laura had been an exceptionally healthy child before this. And maybe I was very foolish to dismiss her weakness after the injections. I thought things were now fitting into place, the timing of her Gardasil vaccinations and the onset of symptoms etc.
As soon as I brought my suspicions to our family doctor he wrote a letter referring us to a consultant paediatrician, who after 5 minutes of interview dismissed my fears about the HPV vaccine and reassured me yet again that this was a very safe vaccine, he diagnosed ME/CFS and told Laura she would be better in 6 months.
Thank God we thought, light at the end of the tunnel and wonderful news – it’s not long term vaccine damage.
Laura just about managed to sit her junior certificate exams a month after this diagnosis with special provisions made for her by the department of education. Her results were very good under the circumstances but definitely did not reflect the top honours student she always was.
Six months started to roll on to 12 months and Laura was definitely not getting any better. In fact, by September 2013 she was no longer able to attend school, only now and again for a half day or a couple of classes at a time.
Weeks at a time went by with Laura lying in her bed, exhausted, but unable to get any kind of rejuvenating sleep, racked with pain and barely able to communicate. The weeks became months, we saw less of her around the house as she was spending most of her days in her bed. At her lowest point I found her younger brother Conor spoon feeding her as she didn’t have the strength or energy to feed herself. She moved into a spare bed in his room as she was lonely and afraid in her room on her own.
Meanwhile I kept researching ME/CFS trying different supplements etc. to try to help her, not all of her symptoms fit under the ME/CFS heading. That HPV vaccination came back to my mind again and again as being the cause of all her problems.
One night I typed in ‘HPV vaccination injury’ – ‘injury’ being the all-important word. This search lead me to hundreds of articles and sites on serious adverse reactions and long term side effects caused by HPV vaccination and in particular Gardasil, the very one Laura was injected with.
There it was right in front of me on my screen, thousands of girls like my Laura with similar symptoms, some worse and some who had actually died. I can barely read any more of these stories as I find them so painful. I’ve cried more than I thought ever possible. My God, the immeasurable guilt I feel every day for signing that consent form.
It’s now four years since Laura received her Gardasil vaccination. Through educating ourselves with useful information posted by other vaccine injured girls and their families, Laura is making improvements.
She follows a very strict diet, is trying to detox her system of heavy metals found in this vaccine. She gets acupuncture and vitamin B12 when she feels these will benefit her. She also found very high doses of top quality Omega 3 EPA to be very helpful.
Laura says, every year she feels sick to her stomach when she hears the first years being called to the hall for their HPV injections. Who could blame her? If she does recover from this and please God she will, Gardasil has taken away years of her life and experiences that can never be replaced.
There’s also the added worry of her fertility. Many of the other girls have experienced ovarian failure as young as 16.
As for Laura’s future, it is still unclear. She has made some improvement and is into the final 18 months in secondary school but still missing an awful lot of classes and even several days at a time. Every week she prioritises what classes she needs to attend and when she can fit in rest periods. She has her sights set high in terms of college points.
At this stage she herself feels she may have to defer for a few years. This is yet another blow but Laura rarely complains, just tries to stay realistic and upbeat…. I’m her mother and I’m no fool. I know there are times when it’s all a front because she doesn’t want to see me upset.
If we have learned anything positive from this horrendous life altering experience, it is that there are some very good people out there eager to help who have taken a genuine interest in Laura’s plight. But unfortunately no one seems to have the cure.
Please God by sharing our experiences we can all help one another.
Karen and Laura, what strong woman you are and great examples to many others. I am sorry you have faced such a distressing and life-altering situation. Your strength and integrity shows through. No doubt, others will read your story and will be spared from a like trial. It is very kind for you to share such personal details.
I feel inspired and so will others to face life’s challenges head- on, and through working together we can minimize the hard effects. I know that as you place your burdens on the Lord, he will lighten the load and guide you on paths that you probably don’t even know exist.
I am grateful you are in touch with the team atSaneVax. They have huge hearts and have worked tirelessly to assist others in like situations. I also have a Featured Doctors section in my menu that has doctors who are familiar with vaccine damages and how to heal.
God bless and please enjoy the musical art below. Your friend, jen
